Its been awhile eversince my last post isnt it?
Not much to tell just :-
Firstly i learnt that i had always had this problem "PAST". I could ever let my past go, i would always come back to the same position, go through the same shit, the same pain, the same heartache to just see that none appreciate my effort. I had been on my best behavior. I put them first as my priority than my family, i spend my whole time and sacrifice everything that i had to just make them happy but never once, they seem to appreciate it. They want me to be romantic, every one of our anniversary i plan one surprises or more. I lit up a numbers of candle and made it as a love shape and stand there pouring my love out. But in the end i was just a game. They want me to put my ego down, i came with a handful of roses, apologizing in front of their door. In return, they used me like a toy. I had enough of my past. All my past had teach me is that there is no such thing as turning back, cause the more you turn, the less closer you are to the future. Trust me, your future is scary, but it is where you restart everything.
Secondly, i had made mistakes, i had hurt most people but if they are willingly accept my apology and give me a chance to make it up to them, they are worth the look. In Friendship especially and btw once you are an EX, there is no f.king way we could ever be "JUST FRIEND". old feelings will come back. It is either EX or PAST. I had enough suffering, enough sacrifice, enough heartache. Move away, cause I'm moving on. This time i am not turning back
Lastly, Those memory with AA is the only thing that i could still kept and it is the only thing that could made me believe there is still hope and love. Others, deleted and erased. Thank You
This would be my last post. Stepping into the future. Wish me luck. Goodbye readers :)
PS: My identity would always remain as a mystery, well for some readers actually.