Reasons

My Past, was the  reason that im here writing each sentences in this blog and in my book,  If there was any chances that were given to re-create  my past, i wont change a thing. Relationship that I had been in, made me wonder, What was my mistake all along that causes such loss and a hurtful heartache to me? As I stare at the ceiling of my room, while the music blasting through my ear drums, I realize the most important thing. 

         Letting go wasn't the problem, neither was loving too much. It was avoiding the facts and pretending that everything was alright and it will get better. I took a look at the person I loved so much, AA. She had transform and to see her now made me realize that, the moment you stop pretending and accept every painful facts , only by then your heart would let go. People would surely change and nothing would stop them to do so. I can't ask AA to love me again when her heart no longer keen to the love. I can't beg for the universe to turn time back just for my selfish reasons. Love isn't about forcing or regretting. You accept and start fresh. Stop the act and wake up. What do an adoloscene know about love?  Their world have not even begin. Relationship teaches us the pro's and cons of being in love. The love you had in the adoloscene age is the kind of a naive and innocent love. When you reach to adulthood, love can be define in 1001 ways but owning a  hearts is no longer the matter. 

The experience I had through out this adoloscene stage, made me realize that even how sincere you are or truthful you been, they won't give a damn, but someday through out their life, at one point of life, they would  wished ,the had appreciated it. But, it's too late isn't it?